My baby girl! !!!

I had just finished the previous post "what is the update? ", published it and dosed off to sleep when suddenly out off the blue I felt an uncontrollable urge to pee and a liquid which didn't feel anyway like pee came. I rushed off to the bathroom but ended up soaking my nightdress and the bathroom floor. My husband who had seen me jump from the bed and run to bathroom followed me inside and saw the liquid on the floor and he was like "your water bag broke". I looked at him in disbelief. I knew that what he was saying was true but I didn't want to believe him so I responded with"don't be silly I just lost control." He looked at me like I had lost my head. I was already on the toilet seat letting out another gush. 'Call your mom' was hubby response. And my mom doesn't believe in mincing words. Her response was you dont loose control of your bladder at this age. I know you enough to know that. Now just goo doctor. Call them up and tell me what is going on later. Meanwhile my hubby not waiting for me called doctor's office and we were told to come to emergency as it was 1.30am.

Thankfully I had just packed the diaper bag the day before so all I had to do was change my dress, grab the bag, pray and leave. With a promise of calling from hospital to my in law.. Me and hubby left.  Frankly once in car I was feeling calm and I could see my hubby panicking. We managed to have fight and make up before we reached the hospital. The moment I got admitted my delivery nurse came and food a litmus test to make sure it was amiotic fluid.  With that turning positive I was officially in labor.

After 8am, I was administered induction medicine as i was showing no sign of contraction though I had a dull period kind of pain in my lower abdomen and back.  By 11 am I had only 4 cm dilation but the pain was coming in strong horrible waves. When one particular wave left me shivering, shuddering and quaking from tip to toe, I decided enough is enough I will take epidural.

Epidural turned out to be another drama as it took the anesthetic 30 mins to locate the correct nerve during which time i was supposed to stay absolutely still, which was impossible with contraction coming in every 5 mins. Unfortunately he never got the nerve and decided to just plunge it where it was available. Right side of my spinal chord. Though it did the trick for me.  Once the epidural was one my nurse decided to increase the induction medicine to accelerate dilation. So by 4 pm I was in active labor and stayed pushing

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As time ticked by I started realizing that my girl was not coming out. Apparently my pelvis was to tiny and was stuck in it. So for 4 hours of pushing the doctor cane to see me. The final option of c section. All by then I was ready for anything to get my girl out. With my consent doctor put together his team and I went in to the OR at 8.30 pm on Oct 6th 2014. My lower portion below ribs was completely desensitized but frankly I was so far gone by then that I fainted/slept right on the OR table and woke up to girl crying and my husband's joyous whisper if "our baby is here". My dear child VIDHATRI VYTESH was born at 8.56pm Oct 6th 2014n a Monday.   :-)

People who were near me for delivery: my hubby,  my sister. .. without them counting down and standing by me the 4 hours of labor would have been impossible. My in laws. My brother in law and sweet niece. 

"What is the update? "

Well my only response to this question, which I seem to be hearing from everyone around me, is nothing... Still waiting.... First pregnancy, or is normal to be delayed.... i have no clue when my girl is planning to come out.

We miss call by mistake, everyone assumes that we are in hospital. Not that I fault them. It is what I would expect of myself too. But irrespective of expectations or hopes am at the most uncertain and anxiety filed part of pregnancy - waiting for labor and delivery after the expected due date. Rest of pregnancy goes off in countdowns and event planning and simple expectations. But once the due date crosses all sorts of thoughts comes in to play. It starts with 'when is it going to happen?'... Which turns in to, 'How is it going to happen?'.... And then 'what can I do to make it happen? ' ... Which further detoriates to ' 'is everything going to go alright? ' and then finally settles on 'God! Whatever happens, let it go alright and let my child be born hale and healthy!!!'....

Every time I feel my girl stay silent, I start wondering if she is under stress... is the placenta functioning properly.... May be I should just induced add soon as possible... is she alright? . And then I rush to the fridge pull it a glad of juice and drink it and wait for a response. One miss sends me in to panic mode.

I never thought I would panic for such tiny things in life. But somehow becoming pregnant had brought it the worst-case-scenario-devil in me to life and believe she comes to life so often that these days that I look like I have taken leave of my senses. Being practical until by baby is born is going to be uphill task.

Recent update: went shopping in IKEA for the last time before purposed induction date (Thursday midnight supposed to report  to the hospital.. So that they start the medication arguing 1 am on 10th Friday.provided all goes well my girl should be born on 10th.) And got a hanging mobile made of cloth with flower, Spider, Dragon fly, butterfly, and bees. Hanged it from top of the ceiling for my girl to see.  Thinking of getting night lights in moon and star shape and put it up nearby for her.  Here is the pic of the mobile.

40 weeks and still counting

Putting up this pic has been the most frustrating. After such a long wait, having to wait some more without any sign of when is the end time is not my cup of tea.

Wish I knew what my girl is planning. May be then I won't be so anxious. Today is my girl's supposed due date and other than the mucous plug coming out yesterday I haven't had any other symptom of delivery yet. In fact the Jeera water that I drank yesterday just seemed to have made me tired and sleep early. Orbs than that even the lingering back ache and lower abdominal pain seems to have vanished. My doc is kind of certain about seeing me for induction next week. While I am praying to all the deities I know for natural labor before that.

Beauty of 3rd Trimester - Part3, Month 9 & last 9 days (supposedly)

 

The first thing I did at the start of 9th month was this blog. I knew that without something to keep things in perspective I will drive myself crazy by staring at the claender

Beauty of 3rd Trimester - Part2, Month 8

 

Believe me, though meant to be humorous, the feeling depicted in the pics are practical truth. I started being more emotional, weepy and irritable than I had ever been in my life. All said and done I was having the best experience too.

• This month started the amazing phase where I could literally feel my daughter's feet in ribs. Most often it was painful, cos she turned out to be so active that I could feel my right ribs and left kidney bruising but it was most wonderful feeling. "Eighth month is the month folks when u start to feel an increased fetal movement" my pregnancy app told me and believe me I did not need any reminder from it. I remember this particular weekend (it was one immediately after Baby shower (which was in the first week of August)) when my girl was exceptionally active. So active that for those 2 days I had a permanent bump against my lower portion of my ribs and my husband got his long held dream of feeling the baby's feet fulfilled...,well end result when we went for next check up, I found that my daughter has moved from side-wise position to happy inverted position ready for delivery. And I moved from looking like a cantaloupe to a watermelon plus pumpkin.
•  Month 8 also marked the beginning of struggle to turn in bed or getting in to position or even sleeping for good stretch of time. An hour and half of undisturbed sleep was rare to come by and I found myself growing tired everyday. One hour of sleeping on my left side, found me walking up with sore shoulders and numb legs. And god forbid I make the mistake of rolling over on  my back in sleep, within ten mins I will be waking my husband due to severe leg cramps (which will last me whole day). I started building fortress of pillow around me in an effort to keep myself from rolling over and my poor husband found himself delegated to the edge of king size bed.
• In terms of doctor visits, it is one of the boring months. The only measurements take were my BP, weight , belly size and the only exciting part of the check up hearing baby's heartbeat through Doppler. My doctor after the first visit got concerned as I was showing excess weight gain (due absolute lack of exercise the previous month) and I was strictly instructed to make sure my weight gain was only 1 pound per week, which I almost managed. At the end of eighth month, the doctor take vaginal swabs for Group B Strep Infection. Which turned out to be negative for me (not that I was bothered, I was pretty confident that I did not having any infection). 
• One of the reassuring phenomenon that started during this month was breast leakage. It took me a week of finding hardened flakes to understand what was going on. From then on I started paying particular attention to which food the discharge seemed to increase (ofcourse accompanied by painful breast, but by now I am so used to various aches in my body that I hardly notice it). And it also put my mind on ease that I will be able to feed post delivery. Vegetable I seem to be responding to are onion, lots of milk and water, spinach smoothie. Fenugreek doesn't seem to be having much effect while onion seems to be most effective. I haven't tried melons yet. Will be trying them out next to see how it goes.

On a side note:: I am trying to trace the position my Blinky turned to from side wise. Initially she was in lying down position with her legs towards my right side and her head on left. Once she turned to the inverted position, I believe her feet were right under my diaphragm (I know this from number times she has kicked me right in my heart or the way I could feel flexing her fingers/feet against my right lung) and her head sitting right on my bladder with either her hands or i dont know what portion rhythmically hitting left side of my bladder. For the nth time in pregnancy I was running to loo every half an hour. Her butt lying on the left, every time I woke up from sleep my stomach looked like a misshapen watermelon skewed to left side.

Things accomplished during this month::

• Had the most wonderful baby shower 
• Finished final purchases for Baby and started with arranging the baby room
• Washed all baby clothes and got baby's diaper bag from hospital ready.
• Started the pediatrician search
• Found out from hospital what our co-payment commitment etc were (which turned out to be nothing)
• Registered myself for hospital tour.